如何翻墙？——写在Blogspot被封之后 {09-07-09}

继续翻墙

本文将提供一种一劳永逸的翻墙方式（ssh -D），实施之后，那道墙——对你来说——将从此透明。

本文面向的用户：使用Windows作为操作系统并且使用Firefox作为常用浏览器。

第一步：免费获取拥有SSH权限的帐号和密码。

默认的免费获取方式：将本文转载到你自己的博客上，将转载后的文章网址发送到。

转载方式：拷贝文章代码至博客后台HTML编辑器中，直接发布即可，文章标题自拟，可在前后文插入自己的评论。

经过人工审核，你将收到一封附有五个拥有SSH权限的帐号和密码的电子邮件，你可以将它们赠与你信任的人。

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第二步：配置MyEnTunnel软件

下载并安装MyEnTunnel，该软件全名为My Encrypted Tunnel。

一键下载：https://dl.getdropbox.com/u/873345/download/myentunnel.exe

按照上图将第一步收到的帐号信息填写到相应的地方后，点击按钮，再点击按钮。

第一次连接过程中会出现一个认证对话框，按照提示确认即可。以后的自动连接中将不再出现此认证对话框。

最后点击按钮，使对话框隐藏到系统任务栏中。

提示：

为MyEntunnel创建一个快捷方式，将其复制到系统的【启动】（C:\Documents and Settings\当前用户名（需要修改成你自己的）\「开始」菜单\程序\启动）文件夹中，今后开机便可自动启动软件，并自动连接服务器。

绿色代表连接成功且稳定；黄色代表正在连接或重新连接；红色代表连接失败。

第三步：配置Firefox浏览器

假设你正使用Firefox浏览器阅读本文。

一键安装：http://autoproxy.mozdev.org/latest.xpi

点击立即安装，安装后，重新启动Firefox。然后你会看到如下对话框，选择gfwlist (P.R.China)后，点击确定。

接着你会看到Firefox主界面右上角出现有一个“福”字图案，点击“福”。

点击“代理服务器——编辑代理服务器”。

随即出现如下画面，你会看到如GAppProxy、Tor和Your Freedom这样一系列代理服务器名称。

将GAppProxy一栏的参数修改为如下图所示。

修改完毕后，点击确定。至此配置已全部就绪。

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曲线记忆结束~~和平年代over~~Livespace终于de-block~~~庆祝一下~~

这么操蛋的事儿怎么被我碰上了……

该死的诺顿，以后再也不用了！！！！屁软件只查不杀，动不动就被病毒屏蔽了……无语至极……

还有MOTHERF*$&ER 微软，早知打死也不开自动更新。以前还只是黑黑屏，或者给你冒出来个“您是盗版软件的受害者”之类的恶心东西，没想到啊没想到，现在居然狠到直接发system bomb的地步了，装个Service Pack 3结果无法启动……折腾了半天好容易鼓捣好，从网上一查，这破东西08年2月份就发布了，靠，能中个08年2月份的东西我也不容易啊……

臭虫对我遇到的问题基本是毫无帮助，用他的话说就是“为什么你的机器出的问题我都从来没遇到过！？”这就是懂行的人和外行的区别，外行的问题懂行的一辈子都碰不到，比如我爸用个word出的问题我都不知道他怎么搞出来的！这就是懂行的和外行还有外外外行的差别……

NND，逼急了我我去学Linux!TMD，发现中了微软的阴招儿，那叫一个欲哭无泪啊……

再买笔记本就装Linux，鸟病毒，鸟微软，Can't trade it, can't live without it.

有人说这集无聊？What!?

这集让我好是伤感，但又一次强调了让人会爱上GA的原因——Emotions.

What would you do when your world is falling? What would you do when you get hurt? What would you do when you hurt the others? This episopde showed how much people're willing to do to make things right.

学心理学给我的最大收获之一便是：No matter how hard we try, we're living in our own subjective world after all.事实和事件永远发生在个体外面，构建世界的不是事实，而是理解事实的方式和看待事实的角度。这一点也是我在GA里看到的。When things happen, everybody hurts. 你可能觉得你自己对对对，他就是错错错，他怎么能这样错错错让你这样受伤，但其实他也是这么觉得，他也很受伤，指望有人来关心。Cristina and Owen makes the best example.

Meredith stands up for that little girl.心理学上讲，她是"Identified" with the little girl, which induced serious regression. 她比前几季成长太多了。她必须原谅，因为只有原谅才能给她坦然面对生活的勇气，生活里才不会总充满阻抗，就像前一季Dr. Wyatt所说的那样，目标并不是能坦然地面对过去发生的不幸，而是在深知不幸每天都可能发生的情况下，仍然充满希望地生活而不被打垮。如果无法原谅，就永远无法得到这样的勇气。

人与人之间的关系很奇妙，GA充分表现了这一点，编剧不愧有个当Shrink的妹妹。

Hi.  It’s Krista.  I’m saying, It’s Krista because it’s been a loooooong time since you’ve heard from me. The last time I wrote you was the second episode of the season, and now here we are, three to the end.   Crazy, that’s what that is. It’s not that I don’t love you, really. It’s just that we have this staggeringly good staff now who write really, really good TV. I love this staff because they make my life and my job so much easier. Also, because they make me laugh really hard every single day.  It makes me happy to have a life where people are nice and kind and funny and smart and no one is getting drunk and screaming and throwing things at my head.  My life was not always this good.
Which is why I love the episode you just saw, why I’m so, so proud of it.

Hi。我是Krista。再报一次家门是因为大家已经很久没有听我讲了，上次我写博还是这季第二集的时候，而现在我们已经到了这一季的倒数第三季了。时间疯狂地快哈！并不是我不想给大伙儿作贡献，只是我们有非常强大的团队在编这部电视剧。我爱我们这个团队，他们让我的生活和工作都轻松多了。并且，他们每天都让我超级开心！每天都能和很nice很kind很funny很smart的人共事，没人喝大没人冲我大嚷或者扔东西……我太幸福了。我的生活总是这么好~这也是为什么我爱这一集，为什么我非常非常以它骄傲。

What I just got to say to everyone watching was, “Advocate for the children in your life.”  I didn’t start out with that agenda. I started out with the theme of Making Amends – can’t remember who pitched it, but I loved it.  It started out with an idea about Thatcher finally getting sober and coming to make his amends.  But then one of the brilliant writers pitched this story he’d read about a kid who emptied a gun into his Dad. And the episode started to take shape. And it turned into an opportunity for me to say to millions of viewers, “Advocate for the children in your life.” And that makes me really, deeply  happy.  Because I was a kid who could have used an advocate. And I don’t wanna get all over-sharey and uncomfortable and make you feel like you have to avert your eyes cause you came here for some bantery writer blather and ended up in an unshot episode of In Treatment, so that’s all I’m gonna say. I was a kid who could’ve used an advocate.  And as an adult, I have never understood when other adults stand idly by, looking away and making excuses while people hurt children.

之前我想要传达给每一个观众的是：“支持你们周围的孩子们”，但我并没按照之前想的那样写。我以一种“计划中”的方式在写剧本——其实就是想不起来重点应该在哪儿——但我喜欢这种方式。后来我又有一个想法，就是Thatcher终于戒酒并且开始修复他的生活。后来一个天才编剧提到他看过的一个故事，有关一个小孩儿对着自己的父亲射空了手枪的故事。这集就这样逐渐浮出水面了。这个故事也为我传达之前的想法助了一臂之力——“支持你们周围的孩子们”。一切都能安排好让我非常非常开心。因为当我是个孩子的时候，我非常需要周围的支持。我不会太多说我以前的事的啦~~那会让你们觉得不舒服以至于必须停止阅读这篇博客，我知道你们来这儿是为了看一些恶搞编剧的俏皮话，而不想搞得像接受心理治疗似的，所以关于这个我就说这么多。当我还是孩子的时候我很需要别人的支持。而作为一个成人，我就是不能理解为什么有些人明明很闲，却给自己找那么多借口不去关心那些受伤的孩子们。

I LOVE what Richard says to Meredith. I wrote it, so, y’know, I should love it – but I don’t always love everything I write – and man, do I LOVE that scene. I sat on set while the brilliant Tom Verica shot that scene and while the luminous Ellen Pompeo and the wonderful Jim Pickens acted it. And I cried. Every take. I just sat there crying take after take after take.  I cried for Meredith, mostly, because finally, FINALLY one of the adults in her life is taking responsibility for what happened to her. Finally, she’s hearing the words that she needed and didn’t even know she needed. People have tried to apologize before. Thatcher has tried. Richard has even tried. And it’s not that Meredith is hard-hearted. It’s not that she can’t forgive. It’s just that no one ever got it right before.
我爱Richerd对Meredith说的那些话。是我写了那些话，你知道。我本应爱它们——而我并不总喜欢自己写的东西——但是，天，我超爱那一幕。当天才Tom Verica在拍这一幕的时候，当光彩照人的Ellen Pompeo和不可思议的Jim Pickens在表现这一幕的时候，我就坐在监视器边看。我为Meredith掉眼泪，因为，终于，终于，有一个大人能站出来为她童年时所受的伤害承担责任了。终于，她听到了那些她甚至都没意识到自己如此需要的话语。过去也有人向她道歉过，Thatcher就是其中之一,Richard甚至也试过了。并不是Meredith心如铁石，也不是她不能原谅他们，只是从来没有人说到她心里过。

Almost as much as I love what Richard says to Meredith, I love what Meredith says to the mother of poor little Maddy, who emptied a 17 bullet clip into her abusive father.  (And yes, by the way, there are 17 bullet clips. And no, 6 year old Maddy would not have been arrested and taken away from her Mom. We called the Seattle Police and asked. )  I know that what Meredith says and does is controversial, and I meant it to be.   I know that there are syndromes that abuse victims go through, and that perspectives get wholly skewed.  And I think Richard is absolutely right to order Meredith to stay away from that family. And I think Meredith is absolutely right – and powerful and awesome – to ignore that order.  And maybe it’s just my fantasy that an over-stepping doctor could prompt a woman that damaged to finally do the right thing and take a stand to protect herself and her child. But if it’s a fantasy, it’s one I’m proud to put on TV. She was just a baby. She was a little kid. She couldn’t stand up for herself. And here were all these adults running around acting like children and failing, every day, to fight for her. She was neglected and she was abused. Her mother, for those who may have forgotten, attempted suicide IN FRONT OF HER. This was an emotionally unstable woman, Ellis Grey.  Richard saw that – and he did nothing. And Thatcher, her freaking FATHER, who not only saw it, he lived it WITH HER, did less than nothing.  To make an amends is not  just to apologize. It’s to make a thing right. And Thatcher’s little scripted apology can’t do that for Meredith.   It can’t make it right. Her pain runs too deep. Her abandonment was too complete.  And so when Richard finally truly takes responsibility? It breaks down a wall in Meredith’s heart that I truly believe she didn’t even know was there. I think she’s as shocked by her tears as anyone.  And I think there is real and profound healing in that moment.

虽然我很爱Richard对Meredith说的那些，我也同样爱Meredith为可怜的小Maddy说的那些话。这个可怜的小孩儿对虐待妈妈的爸爸开 了17枪，射空了弹夹。（顺便说一句，是滴，一盒弹夹里面有17枚子弹。还有，6岁大的Maddy不会因此被捕而被带离她的母亲。我们给西雅图警察局打电 话问了。）我明白Meredith当时说的话是富有争议的，我特意这样写的。我知道被虐受害者会遭受临床症状，并且关于这种事的所有观点都会是有失偏颇 的。我也认为Richard当时让Meredith不要再插手这个病例是很正确的。而我还认为Meredith无视所谓的规则也是完全正确的——不但充满 力量而且还很伟大。或许一个越线的医生能激励一个受伤的女人做正确的选择去保护她自己和孩子这样的事只是我的妄想，即使是妄想，我也很骄傲能把这妄想放上电视。她只是个小孩子，她不能为自己抗争。而她周围有那么多大人，却像小孩儿那样生活和失败。这样的情况每天都在发生。她被忽视，被虐待。她的母亲在她面前，她面前试图自杀。Ellis Gray,这是个情绪极其不稳定的女人。Richard看到了这一切——却什么都没做。而她的倒霉父亲Thatcher呢，不仅是眼睁睁看着这一切，还在亲身体会着这一切，比什么都没做还糟。修复这些关系并不只是一句道歉就能做到的事。必须让这一切都梳理开，正常起来。但Thatcher那事先排练好的道歉台词并不能为Meredith做到这些，不足以梳理开那些过去。她的痛苦积得太深，她母亲的抛弃太彻底。所以当Richard终于为发生的一切承担他的责任时，Meredith的一道心墙被打碎了，我敢说她自己都意识不到那道墙的存在。我敢说她自己也很惊异于那些眼泪。我觉得那一刻是真的深深的治愈。

There’s a lot more I could say about this episode, but I did the podcast this week, so I’m kinda sick of hearing myself talk about it.   So instead, I’d just like to say, once more, with feeling, please advocate for the children in your life.  With love, Krista

我对这一集能说得还有很多，但我这礼拜也负责了Podcast，我已经对自己的评论感到厌烦了。所以我就再次诚恳地说一句，请一定支持你们周围的孩子们。爱你们，Krista

这次翻译又迟了~~要向大伙儿道歉~~这两天偶都在草莓音乐节鬼混，从高中的时候就知道伍德斯托克，大学时看了伍德斯托克的纪录片，总之已经过了那个喜欢朋克，满腔愤怒的时候，居然这时候天时地利地赶上了。我已经问了这个问题很久：为什么我这样的会跑到医学院去苦读五年医？早几年前还心彷徨徨，逃课，搞社团，筹划退学等等，在那种环境里算得上是无恶不作，最后还是老老实实开始读书。前两天听了Martha Wainwright的一首歌，那首歌有个很劲爆的名字：Bloody mother fucking asshole. 里面唱道"I wish I wish I wish I was born a man/so I can learn to stand up for myself/Like those boys with guitars/I've been watching in bars/Who've been stamping their feet to a different beat/to a different beat/to a different beat" 如果我是男人的话，或许我会和所有寻求安全感的需要决裂，而性别将会成为我这样做最坚实的理由，或者借口, take a different beat of my life.Anyway, ce qui sera, sera.深深呼进一口气再呼出去的遗憾。不管怎么说，现在身心俱好，也算是个小奇迹。嗯，是个神迹。

Will there be another door open for this? Well, Lord，they're all in your hands. 至少我已经懂得，开门的不是我。

我也很想形容一下当时坐在草坡上都在想的什么东西，但我已经过了那个喜欢记录呓语和唧唧歪歪的年纪，况且我一向不喜看到别人唧唧歪歪那点儿破事儿，我自己的也就是这点儿破事儿，这点儿破遗憾，谁还没有点儿这个那个？在还有人为下一顿吃什么而绝望的时候，有人睡马路的时候，世界在falling apart的时候为这点儿破事儿唧唧歪歪是一种罪恶。我也很烦看到满眼都是个人意象的东西，媚俗。我就擦个媚俗的边儿，这就打住。

Meredith要结婚了，不知道这一季最后一集会不会就是婚礼~~不过从之前的编剧博客看，如果真是如此，Shonda老大一定会吐血！并且因为Izzie的原因Meredith会有一个很大很"Corny"的Wedding了……Good luck on that, Mer...

大家都在张罗着结婚，明年有初中的好朋友要结婚了，居然现在就要订酒席……简直太疯狂了！！！Screw the reception dinner! Screw all the restaurants! Screw 婚庆公司！Screw all those S.O.B who conspire to take all of our money and kill all the romance! 老姐有一句话很经典，她说：结婚要麻烦得你结完了就不想离！不是因为别的，就是因为不想再结一次！Fine...

I've gone too far...can't stop everytime it goes to the wedding thing...Those ooey-gooey things could also kill me.Well, the writer's blog~~that's what I'm gonna do~~

PS:Dr. Wyatt出场了！Kick-ass Shrink出场了！偶好喜欢她~~她真的是个超级厉害的精神分析师~~~Owen有救了~~PTSD啊~~~

I won’t take up your time by telling you my name and that this episode of television is my first. I won’t tell you things about myself because I can hear you screaming “I DON’T CARE WHAT KIND OF TEA YOU LIKE TO DRINK, I WANT TO KNOW ABOUT MER AND DER!!!”  Because I understand what you want is a discussion of the episode.  So, I won’t tell you a thing about me.  Not until the end of this blog.  So here we go.   Discussing the episode…now.

我就不告诉你们我是谁了，也不会占用大家的时间坦白说这是我的首次电视剧编剧~我不会告诉你们有关我自己的事情~~因为我已经听到你们在大叫“我们才不关心你喝什么茶，我们只想知道Mer和Der的事情！！！”因为我明白你们想看关于这集的讨论。嗯，所以，我就不泄露我的个人信息了。到最后再讲我自己。所以我们开始讨论这集都发生了什么哈，现在开始！

Okay, too much is going on in this episode.  TOO MUCH I SAY!  People are throwing themselves out of windows, planning weddings, eating food by the barrels… And friendships are mended, a child dies and a daughter disowns her father. Okay, there’s a lot to discuss here, so let’s go.

Okay,这集发生了很多事情。我说，真的是很多很多！有人从窗户跳了出去，有人在筹备婚礼，有人在成桶成桶地吃东西……还有就是，有些人的友谊被修复了，一个孩子死了，一对父女闹僵了。Okay,看来我们要说的内容有很多，我们最好现在就开始说。

Izzie is dying.  That really hit home for me after seeing her collapse.  I remember discussing this story in the writers’ room and Shonda saying “Izzie collapses.  This is the turning point.  She gets really, really sick.”  And I said “WHAT????? Izzie collapses?  MY Izzie collapses???  This is bull*!@# Shonda!”  Yeah, I said that.  It was all in my head, but I said it.  Seriously, it’s heartbreaking to see Izzie this way.  When Izzie fake codes and makes Meredith try on ugly wedding dresses, we get the sense that Izzie’s going to be okay - that the chemo won’t affect her.  And Izzie believes that too.  She fights to maintain who she is throughout the day until her body betrays her.   When Izzie vomits, this disease becomes real to her.  But what we also see is the beginning of a true friendship between Cristina and Izzie.  It took a lot for Izzie to admit that she’s sick to Cristina.  That the cancer is winning.  And Cristina is there for her.  She’s there to wipe her brow and to help Mer with her stupid wedding dresses.  And it’s for Izzie.  Cristina is there for Izzie.  And if anything comes out of this tragedy, it’s their friendship.

Izzie处在死亡边缘。看到她倒在地板上真的给我心上一击。我还记得当时在编剧室和Shonda讨论这集剧情时，Shonda说：“Izzie会倒下，这就是转折点，她从此开始真的变成临危病人。”我说：“什么！？？Izzie倒下了？？我的Izzie倒下了！？？？这是狗臭屁！！Shonda!”噢耶，我当时就是那么讲的。我脑袋里闪现出那个词，然后就说出来了。没开玩笑吧？看到Izzie变成病人让人心碎啊！当Izzie假装不行了来诱使Meredith试穿那些夸张的婚纱时，我们明白Izzie是试图表现得正常——试图证明化疗不会改变她。而她也的确相信自己不会被任何东西改变。她硬撑了一天，直到她的身体背叛了她。当Izzie呕吐，这个病魔对她而言开始变得真实了。但我们在这儿看到了Izzie和Cristina之间真正友谊的开始。要让Izzie在Cristina面前承认自己是个病人并不容易，并且这时癌魔正在胜利。但Cristina会在那儿陪她抗争。Cristina在那儿轻轻舒展开她的眉头，然后帮Mer穿脱那些夸张的裙子。这些都是为了Izzie。Cristina会一直支持她。如果说这场不幸带来了任何正面的东西，那就是她们的友谊。

And then there’s Cristina, who is hurting over Owen. Here is a guy she can’t have.  You see, Cristina never thought she would find love again after Burke.  And I’m not comparing Burke and Owen because they are very different, but love is love and Cristina feels it deeply for Owen.  And she can’t have him.  Can you imagine that?  To love someone and they love you but you can’t be together.  To see him everyday – every single day, and not be able to touch him, hold him, kiss him.  Well, this is the hell that is Cristina’s life right now.  She longs for Owen.  She wants him.  But she can’t have him. Because it’s dangerous to love him.  Loving him can get her hurt again. So Cristina stays away and watches him from afar.  Does she have hope for them?  That they will be together again one day?  I don’t know.  But I think we should hope for her.

说到了Cristina，还在Owen的事情中受伤的Cristina。这儿有个男人她得不到。你知道，Cristina自从Burke事件以后就认为自己不会再爱了。我不是在比较Burke和Owen，因为他们是两个截然不同的人，但对Cristina来说，爱就是爱，而她对Owen有很深的感情。但是她不能和他在一起。你能想象这种情况吗？爱一个人，并且对方也爱你，但你们却不能在一起。而你还能每天都看到他——每一天！却不能触碰他，不能拥抱他，不能吻他。看，这种操蛋状况就是Cristina现在所遇到的。她渴望和Owen在一起，她想要他，但她不能得到他，因为爱上他是件太危险的事情。爱他会让她再次受伤。所以Cristina选择保持距离，远远地看着他。她对他还抱着希望么？或许他们有一天还能在一起？我不知道。但我们应该对他们有点信心。

And Owen is trying.  He is struggling to heal himself.  He’s done with denial. Let’s face it, nothing hits home like choking your girlfriend in the middle of the night. Which is why Owen’s in therapy.  And I admire Owen for seeking help right away.  It’s brave.  Brave because he has to relive things that nearly killed him.  And yet he’s given himself over to Dr. Wyatt, hoping she can help.  And when Owen defines that feeling at the end, our hearts break because he is so tortured, but we also feel victorious.  Because there’s a chance Owen can mend.  And with that possibility comes hope.  There’s that word again…

Owen在努力。他在努力地自救。现在他已经不再拒绝承认那些问题了。让我们面对它们，如果在半夜掐住自己女朋友的脖子还不能让一个人承认自己有问题的话，那还有什么可以！？这就是为什么Owen终于接受治疗了。我钦佩Owen终于主动寻求帮助了，这需要勇气，因为这意味着他必须真正面对那些狠狠地打击和伤害了他的东西，他要再次体验那些伤害，这需要极大的勇气。但现在他坐在Dr. Wyatt面前了，希望她能帮助自己。当Owen在最后终于给自己的情感下了定义，我们看到他如此痛苦，不禁为此感到心酸，但同时也为他感到骄傲。他还有机会修正一切，得到医治，这给他带来了希望。哈，又是这个词，希望……

And George.  When I think of hope, I think of him.  I wanted George to find himself – his strength as a doctor.  And he has.  Who would have thought that George “007” O’Malley would be a kick ass trauma surgeon?  Seeing George in action took me back to the elevator.  You remember the elevator right?  Intern year.  George and Alex are stuck in the elevator with a patient and the patient needs emergency medical.  George excels and Alex…well, Alex kind of chokes.  So yeah, it’s the elevator moment again and George saves a life.  Again.  I love that this happened again years later. In the bar, when Alex acknowledges that George is great at trauma, it shows that Alex has grown, just like Meredith. Alex would have never admitted George was better at something years ago.  Alex would also never admit to feeling fearful, especially to George.  And Alex is absolutely terrified because Izzie’s sick.  And he’s scared that she’s going to die.  And he’s scared of what that might do to him. And we see yet again, the beginning of a friendship. One between George and Alex.

还有George。当我想到“希望”这个词的时候，我也想到了George。我希望George能找到他自己——他作为一名医生的能力。而他的确有这个能力。谁曾想当年的“007”现在居然是个厉害的外伤医生呢！看到George这样的表现又让我想起那次的电梯事件。你还记得那个电梯事件的吧？他们还是实习生的时候~George和Alex被困在电梯里，同时还有一个病人需要急救。George那次大胜了Alex……唔，Alex那时候像个雕像了。所以，这是George的又一个电梯拯救，又一次！我喜欢在几年之后这样的情景又回来了！在酒吧里，当Alex承认George在外伤急救方面很行的时候，我们也看到了Alex的成长。就像Meredith，Alex也成长了。要在以前，打死他都不会承认George会在任何方面比自己强的。并且Alex也从来不会承认他也会害怕，更不要说是在George面前。而现在Alex因为Izzie的病真的感到了恐惧。他害怕Izzie会死，害怕Izzie的离去会给他的打击。而在这里，我们再一次看到了一个友谊的生根发芽，在George和Alex之间。

Speaking of fear.  Bailey is full of it because she has to tell her husband about PEDS.  Let’s not forget, Bailey’s marriage almost ended because of her job.  And now she wants to take on a new specialty?  PEDS will require all of her time and energy.  How can she tell her husband and expect him to understand?   And why is she doing this in the first place when she’s in the company of dying children all the time???  Well because she loves it.  And because the children…well, sometimes you save one. And that victory is worth it.  Worth the time and the energy and the risk of possibly losing something that’s very important to you, like your husband. But today, Bailey wonders why she’s doing it.  This sweet child that she held all day long, died.  And there was never a chance of saving her.  How does one become accustomed to such tragic loss?

说到害怕，Bailey也害怕把自己申请到儿科方向的事告诉她的丈夫。别忘了，Bailey因为工作差点把婚姻就丢了。现在她想要换个新方向？儿科需要她付出100%的精力和时间。她怎么能把这个告诉丈夫并指望他能理解呢？而又是为什么她现在整天被一群病孩子包围着却还要做儿科呢？？？嗯……因为她爱这个工作。因为她爱小孩……而且，有时候你的确能救活一个。那种成就感就值了！值了那些她会付出的时间和精力，值了她可能会不得不付出的宝贵东西，比如，丈夫。但今天，Bailey却不明白自己为什么在干这个。一个可爱的孩子死了，她抱了一整天的孩子。再也没机会救她了。人怎么能习惯于这样沉重的失去呢？

And loss.  Callie cuts off her father.  How brave is she?  Callie constantly surprises me. She never planned to introduce Arizona to her dad.  Not today.  But, she’s proud of Arizona.  Proud of her relationship and if her father supports her - like he’s always done - then he will accept her relationship, right? Wrong.  My heart goes out to Callie.  But my heart also goes out to Mr. Torres.  He loves his daughter more than anything in the world and he believes that taking her home will help Callie.  He wants to protect his daughter.  He wants to be there for her.  He wants her close.  So no one wins here.  Both Callie and her dad hurt. And we don’t know what this loss will do to Callie.  She has a strong family unit and who knows what life will be like as Callie leaps into life without her parachute.

说到失去，Callie失去了他的父亲。她太勇敢了！Callie时不时地总在给我惊喜。她从来没打算把Arizona介绍给她父亲，至少不是今天。但她为拥有Arizona骄傲，为她们的亲密关系骄傲，而如果她父亲一如既往地支持她的话，他就会接受她们的，对吧？我很能理解Callie,但我也理解Mr. Torres。他爱自己的女儿甚于一切，他相信把她带走真的能帮助她活得更好。他想保护自己的女儿，想一直支持她，想让她和自己更亲近。所以在这件事上没人是赢家。Callie和她的父亲都受了伤害。我们不知道这个失去对Calllie意味着什么，她有着优越的家庭背景，我们不知道丢掉了这个救生圈，Callie跳到生活的大河里会如何。

Let’s end this discussion with some happiness. How proud are we to see Meredith all grown up?  I mean, she is.  Meredith is so sure that she wants to marry Derek Shepherd that it doesn’t even come up for discussion with Cristina.  Meredith is sure.  The only thing Meredith isn’t sure about is this wedding that Izzie is planning.  I mean, Izzie is going all wedding-planning-zilla on Meredith, except rather than go crazy, Izzie is using her illness to get everything she wants.  And Meredith wants to make Izzie happy.  No, this wedding isn’t what Meredith wanted – buffalo wings, hair in a pony tail, reception at “Joe’s” is what she wanted.  But Meredith has grown up, people, and growing means giving your dying friend whatever she wants.  And it doesn’t stop there.  Meredith is finally the big sister that Lexie wants and needs.  I LOVE when Meredith and Lexie approach the guys in the scrub room.  To see Meredith take up for her little sister makes us proud of Meredith.  And the last moment with Meredith and Lexie is wonderful.  Yes, we are happy that Derek and Mark mend their friendship but we are happier that Meredith is accepting her family.  That she’s letting people in.  That she’s growing.

让我们最后讨论一些开心的东西。看到Meredith有了这么多的成长是多么令人骄傲的事情！我说，她真的成熟了。Meredith很确定自己要嫁给Derek Shepherd，她甚至都不需要找Cristina商量了。Meredith很确定。Meredith唯一不确定的事情是Izzie正在筹办的这场婚礼。我的意思是，Izzie可是在正儿八经地筹备一场正儿八经的婚礼，她没有因为生病发狂，而是小利用了一下自己的病让大家都听自己的。Meredith当然想让Izzie开心。盛大的婚礼才不是Meredith想要的。她想要的婚礼是：特色烤鸡翅，马尾辫，在Joe's吃饭。但Meredith已经足够成熟了，同志们，成熟意味着满足你绝症的朋友的一切要求。这还不是全部~Meredith终于成为了Lexie需要的那个大姐姐。我太喜欢Meredith、Lexie和那两个家伙在洗手室的那个场景了。Meredith为自己的妹妹撑腰让我们为她骄傲。这集最后Meredith和Lexie在一起的那个场景也很棒。我们很开心地看到Derek和Mark“重修旧好”，但我们看到Meredith接受她的家庭更开心。她终于开始向别人敞开了。这说明她真的成长了。

Hello.  I’m Sonay and this episode of television is my first.  I want to thank Shonda, Krista and Hammer as well as all the writers of “Grey’s Anatomy” for this opportunity and for being such an amazing support system. Tony, it was an honor. Also, thanks to all the assistants and the crew of “Grey’s Anatomy” for making this experience so memorable.

Hello.我叫Sonay，这次编剧是我的编剧初体验。我想要感谢Shonda,Krista和Hammer，也要感谢格蕾的所有编剧给我这个机会和所有的支持。Tony，这真是我的荣幸。还有，感谢格蕾剧组的所有成员，你们让我的编剧初体验如此值得记忆。

And I don’t drink tea.  I drink scotch. 

还有，我不喝茶。我喝苏格兰威士忌。